IMP -thank you for telling me your thoughts. I guess every now and then to get a "atta boy" from someone who really seems to tell it like it is..well it is just nice. So thanks.
You're welcome, cagz. And in a couple/few year, you will look back on all of this and be thankful. it is really amazing how life goes if you let things go.
Anyway, I am on vacation this week. Thank God. I need a break. My sons and I are heading to NJ and PA to visit for a couple days.
I WANT to be one of those women who looks up and says..."I am better than this, I deserve better-----and he lost not me.....that is what I want. and that is HARD because that is FACING who H really really is...a liar.
Cagz, I get what you are saying here...but you DO deserve better, and the quicker you face who your H really is the quicker you will believe in that. I have the same problem with mine--- unfortunately there is no OW and there is a lot of sweet talk, which makes turning away and believing in deserving better sooooo much harder.
IMP, Have a great vacation. Why are ya harassing RCR so much? (TP's thread) That know-it-all stuff ain't my cup 'o tea, but maybe there is something useful in there?
My dad defined it like this today-- He said I won't allow myself to believe in the promises in teh Word for my future. I told him he is right -- because I had thought those were for the marriage and life that i had. AND that is where I am stuck -- at least for now.
The hurt of loosing what I had is real and raw again. I WANT to be one of those women who looks up and says..."I am better than this, I deserve better-----and he lost not me.....
I am stuck there too - I guess we have plenty of company. I haven't been able to convince myself to let go of what I thought I had or the dream of a long, lasting M. Maybe it is something that will happen on its own when other things change and shift inside and make room for new thoughts, new dreams. That is what I hope will happen, anyway. . . . Now would be good! Two things I've learned while reading everything I can find for ideas how on to get unstuck: 1. Resistance will reinforce whatever it is that you are resisting. 2. While you are seeking, you will not find what you are looking for. (That one surprised me - I think it was in A New Earth, which I need to resume reading.)
me: 47 H: 48 he has 2 grown sons M 1995(my 1st, his 3rd) hit iceberg 6/07 S 9/26/07 before now
Something from my online Devotional...vERY VERY GOOD........and timely. Now the question will I receive it and grasp it?
"Today's Prayer O Lord, thank You for Your wonderful promises! Though in this world, I face troubles, you have told me to take heart because You have overcome the world! (John 16:33 ). I am so relieved and thankful that through You, I am an overcomer. So, Lord, when I am overwhelmed or discouraged or faced by great challenges or tempted, please remind me that I can overcome when I rely on You. Remind me to "take it to the Lord in prayer" and allow You to carry me through. I also pray for wisdom and for that way out when temptation comes my way. Thank you. In Jesus' name, amen. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
What Is Your Promised Land? TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2, by Os Hillman 04-21-2008
"So I gave you a land on which you did not toil and cities you did not build; and you live in them and eat from vineyards and olive groves that you did not plant" (Josh 24:13).
God called the people of Israel to leave Egypt and come out of slavery in order to enter their own Promised Land. It meant they had to change a way of life they had known their whole lives. Instead of being told what to do everyday by a taskmaster, they were now being led by the cloud of God that led them into the desert with the ultimate goal of entering their own Promised Land.
Every believer has a Promised Land in their lives. It is the place where you receive all God intended for you to receive. However, many of us are still living in Egypt where we sweat and toil in response to the taskmaster of production dictated by our workplaces and our lifestyles of busyness.
We will know when we are beginning to experience our Promised Land when we experience God?s rest at the same time we are fulfilling our work life call. We will begin to give testimony to what Joshua says in the above verse. We will begin to receive things we never built or planted. We begin to experience a level of rest in our working lives that is not characterized by sweat and toil. Things become easier because we are receiving them as a fruit of our call instead of a goal.
I began to experience this new way of living as I began to be obedient to doing things based on His direction versus my perceived outcome. Provision began to follow obedience. Projects began to get done with little sweat. God brought the people to me to get things done. There was no longer a tendency to manipulate outcomes that I wanted to have happen. God was giving me my Promised Land as I yielded to Him.
Are you living in your Promised Land? If not, release the goals of your life to the Lord and simply be obedient to His voice. Ask Him for the steps you are to take to receive your Promised Land."
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
IMP--Have a great trip! Pam--Hey, are you saying I'm not normal? Gee, thanks!
Cagz--
[quoteNow the question will I receive it and grasp it?[/quote]
Well, that's a lot of material for you to grasp entirely. Look at it this way, you're grasping what you need to grasp at the time you're getting it. Life works that way, ya know. A true work in progress?
Get help from God today. The future will take care of itself. (Good words for me to live by today as well. )
Hugs,
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Progress in "letting go" I have found is not linear.
I do well for a couple of days, then I regress....... Then somehow I find more strength and do well for longer... Then I regress again.
It is hard Cagz. Remind yourself that you are a child of God. You are not alone and are following God's path for your life. He will protect you and your life will eventually be better than what you had. This could be with your H or not. "Letting Go" makes the good just happen quicker. Whatever that may be.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11