Last night, I had the 2nd nice dream about my H in less than a week. I don't remember too many details, except we were talking with others at a table. He was matter-of-fact with me, i.e wasn't particularly "connected with me". But when I affectionately rubbed his back a little, he reached out and held my hand, I think. Whatever it was, it spoke to me - the thought that came to me (when I woke up) was perhaps he needs me to reach out more.
That email he sent 1.5 weeks ago gave me the impression that he was saying "I am reaching out, even though in a very safer, non-commited way, and am hoping you would respond". Because 2 days later, when I emailed about dog-sitting, he was in a good mood about it.
Today was such a beautiful day. On the next beautiful day, I will consider calling him up and inviting him to go bike-riding or take our dog to the park or do a BBQ.
Hi I love those nice dreams about H lately i am trying to write my dreams down to see what they mean I try to see if my dreams could mean anything and help me with my choices I love what you say about watching your thoughts I feel happiest when I focus on H return and all of this working out then I see reality H seems so far away and shows no signs of return and I allow my thought to think D I know it is practice, but I am truely afarai to thionk positive thoiughts regardong H as I fear disappointment peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow
I love what you say about watching your thoughts I feel happiest when I focus on H return and all of this working out then I see reality H seems so far away and shows no signs of return and I allow my thought to think D I know it is practice, but I am truely afarai to thionk positive thoiughts regardong H as I fear disappointment
That's the neat thing about the Law of Attraction. The positive feelings and happy feelings are hundreds of times more powerful than the negative BUT if the negative thougths are persistent, then they can manifest. So it actually is more worthwhile to take the risk to feel the happy feelings instead of the fear and the negative. Feel the gratitude for any positive thing you see, no matter how small. Gratitude is powerful. So is love, which includes self-forgiveness and self-compassion. The more negative feelings or thoughts, the more you'll be attracting those. So try to make a conscious decision to switch to positive/happy thoughts, and think of the positive things in your H, and imagine those things in him. That's what I do with my situation. This is a big 180 for me - to feel the gratitude instead of ingratitude attached to worrying about whether good things are going to last.
Peace, Who is Joel Osteen? Glad to hear you're feeling more positive today. Keep up the good work.
I have an update:
Yesterday afternoon, my SS#2 called me. I was still at work. Surprise, surprise! It was so nice to hear from him. He'd locked himself out of the house and was waiting for his Mom to come ome. He decided to call me to catch up! He chatted and chatted, had so much to say. I had to end the call as I had to work...
After the chat, I emailed my H telling him about an essay contest and asking for his opinion - whether the boys would want to enter. I also asked if he was going to watch our dog next week.
He replied this morning, in a fairly good mood, I think. He was happy that my SS called me and talked so much. He didn't think they would do the contest thing. He asked if he could pick up our dog on Sunday. He said he liked that spring finally arrived.
I responded, and told him that Monday is dog swimming but I understood it was rushed for him on Mon night to pick her up. I reminded him that he'd said previously that he would enjoy watching a DVD with me sometime. I asked if he wanted to do lunch/dinner and/or movie or DVD. I offered to cook, do cook out, take out or eat out.
No response from him yet. He's either contmplating it or just wants to leave it till the last minute to confirm. Hard to know what he's thinking.
I was catching on reading my Charlyne Cares emails. From April 8th Charlyne Cares, I was struck by her advice that I must be distracted, by people, nor by what I am witnessing, in my search for God’s perfect answers to me and for my M.
PH Joel is a pastor and worth listening too if you have time he is on TV many times a week he is positive and has many good solutions to every problem imaginable check out his website joel Olsteen
glad you and H had a ncie interaction how are you feeling did everything turn out ok with doctor I dont remember if you posted that peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow
Hi Peace, Hmm I will have to check out Joel Olsteen's website. Thanks - I am still waiting to hear back from my H about Sunday. I am fine, just tired everyday when I get home from work. Makes me sleep for an hour and then wake up to pray, etc. This means going to bed later and getting less sleep through the night. Need to get out of tis bad cycle.
I think the whole S thing takes its toll on us. Plus my job isn't my passion. Still have yet to find a job that sets me oon fire
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did everything turn out ok with doctor I dont remember if you posted that
Thanks for asking. No, I didn't post the latest. When I had the doctor follow-up, I found out that the scan report said the benign lump was not new. So then I had to follow up on the old reports to see when it manifested. The radiologist seems to think that it's either normal tissue or a benign thing. He said there was nothing to worry about. I am trusting that he is right about this. -PH
