How was your weekend? Thinking of you. Being very dark with H these days, so haven't had a chance to ask him when he can hang with the girls so I can meet you for lunch. Maybe tonight I can go over the weekly schedule with him.......
I'm glad you're getting a chance to really detach from your H. Although I know it's still far from being an easy road. But at least he's not dumping his garbage on you so much.
I enjoyed your photos! So what did your girls like best about their vacation?
Well, Day #9 of H being gone, and Day #2 of no tears. I didn't realize how much a gal could cry. But I am just letting the rivers flow, accepting my sadness as a tool to help me move on.
I will tell you what I am enjoying: peace in the eggshell free house, having the girls all to myself, being a better parent (stepping up because no one else is there), peace from H's obvious need to be single. These things are empowering me. I miss being a wife to my H, a friend, and all that comes with a good marriage. But I am standing on my own feet, surviving the days as they go by and realizing that this will not kill me. I can tackle what's ahead.
You have such awesome inner strength -- I have had faith you will make it just fine, no matter the outcome.
Oh, I spoke to my friend, "M", the other night. Turns out that despite her own unbelievable newfound inner strength, she has found she still has to contend with weaker moments. She said that she had a really low, rough day on Sunday. It was another weekend without her DD's, and with the big D looming ever closer, she was starting to feel depressed and panicked. "M" said she had felt so strong for so long because she had been naive to think their M had a chance -- but now that the D is a certainty, she feels the wind going out of her sails.
I told her that it just had to be another of those cyclical things, with the hills and valleys, the lows and highs. It would get better with time, and the extremes would cease to be so... extreme.
LWB, I thought about you today. I was depressed and frustrated about being single mom. And strated to encourage myself..there are moms with small kids like me and thuoght about you. ((((hug))) Beauty
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