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H just left....this is so hard.. I did not cry, beg, etc..but as soon as he left I cried....am still crying...this sucks, totally...saying goodbye to the man you love so he can go to where he is living now...when he should be at home with his wife and kids...I just hate this...all this...

Treese

I just hate this...all this...
Of course you do.

You know.... I feel the same way, every time I leave my family. I am heartbroken all over again. It feels so wrong. I have a protection order against me so I am not even allowed to speak to my wife. !!! And that just feels so ridiculous to me.

So I know how you feel.

Treese, what did you do today to make yourself feel awesome ?

Gosh Sir, you are so awesome....you are doing so well, I only wish I was doing as well...

I cried myself to sleep...H actually looked really good last night, and this morning I had to call him to bring my S10 a lunch and he is already heading to the gym....so I guess the depression is gone and he's back to living the good life...

I wish I could really convince myself that it is MLC, then maybe I could understand a little more..he just seems so at peace with his decision...

I'm sorry but I want him to hurt like I do...I know I dont' have control but geez....

Sorry, venting....the day started out bad...I guess going to bed was bad....

I'll make it better.....

Treese

Awww, Treese.

I feel for you. Many days I was like that. Cried myself to sleep, woke up and first thing in the morning was more crying. Seriously. I've been there.

I know how you feel. It's a terrible place you find yourself in.

I hope you do make it better. Call up an old friend, enjoy some sunshine today. Do something nice for yourself maybe?

Hi all;

I have a friend here at work whose sister works with my H. H is apparently telling everyone he works with that this was mutual split....but they all know differently...and people are talking about how much they don't like him anymore...that he's a jacka**. This is so unlike him...he has always been very well liked...

And he has mentioned his job 3 times now in the past 3 weeks...like he's worried about it...even last night he mentioned it..

I am a little scared right now....he's acting so bizarre...I know it's MLC but I can't have him losing his job....

And what the heck....it wasn't a mutual split...and he pretty much told them we were done....I am so ticked off...but I guess what can I expect from someone who isn't thinking clearly...

Advice??

Treese

(((((((Treese)))))))

Advice?
Keep breathing. Take care of Treese. Take care of the kids. Try not to waste you energy worrying about what he is telling people, or what they think. You know what's true, and most of them do to.

The job, there's not much you can do there. When he does talk listen, but don't say anything that puts pressure on him to keep it! Pressure from you, even if you are right, will not help.

Can't I just email him and tell him I would appreciate it if he didn't tell people our split was a mutual thing, cause it's a lie. or am I wasting my time?

Wasting your time!

Forget about him for now. Forget his antics. Take care of Treese. It sure is true that you would appreciate him behaving more reasonably and responsibly. But he isn't, and he's in no position to hear your viewpoint right now.

Best you can do is keep people informed of what is happening from your side.

They want it to be mutual, it is a way for them to save face. They say things they want to be true. Doesn't matter to you though. You don't need to accept their truth. For example, my wife says I was abusive for 22 years, and that I am stalking and surveilling her. That's what she says, maybe she even believes it to be true. But I know what really is true. I'm not going to ask her to stop saying it. I decided to let people know my truth, and let it be, at that.

You'd be wasting your time. He'll just look at it as another nag, another thing for him to get all irritated with you at. I totally know what you're saying, though. My husband likes to say that we've decided to separate. I like to say that my husband decided to leave. The truth comes out eventually.

You are all right....and one of the girls he works with will tell the truth, I work with her sister....I really think he has mental issues....and the whole job thing scares me...
then his job could look at his cell bills and find out he has been talking "a lot" to another person....that could get him fired...what is he doing to us???

Is this the worst of it or does it worse? I'm scared but there's nothing I can do...this is not the person I know and love...

I think this is the most frightened I've been yet...