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Don't cry. I'm sure everyone is praying for you as well.

Yes, my xh really lost his memory and he's still not regained a lot of it since then. Three years ago, I reminded him that I couldn't be friends w/someone who had two deputies come to my house to escort a plastic Easter Egg out the door. He doesn't remember doing that, nor does he remember a lot of the other things he's done, but I have it all documented and locked up for safekeeping. You just never know when you'll have to pull that documentation out.

So, you need to keep looking ahead. Do not be afraid. You are stronger than you think and you've got your family behind you, just as you have everyone here and your friends. You have nothing to fear, but fear itself.

RJ, Snodderly is a real gem, sniff, sniff.

I also have a hard time getting past the fact that he called the police on me for no reason. Just goes to show you how desperate they become.

My H's memory doesn't seem to be too bad, just construed (sp?).

And that is what I fear, my dear.

Something I learned that helped me with my anxiety and fears, came from a minister at my church.

It was breathing, and it was a prayer.
Breathing in, " Lord, help me to do"
breathing out, " only what is right and good."

It got me through alot. It still gets me through to the next point.

For me, it reminds me that all I can control is myself. I can do what is right and good. I can react to everything in a way that is right and good, and I have no regrets.
Peace is much easier to achieve with this as a guide.

Bless you Mrs. H.

It will be better than the heck you have lived through the last 2 years.

Thanks Holly, it's always nice to hear from you.

I got a call from H's Grandmother.

She wanted to know if I received the same invitation she got for S6 bday party.

Seems H is throwing S6 a bday party at his apartment next weekend.

He is doing a pirate themed party. He knows darn well I am doing a pirate themed party here the following weekend for him.

I asked his Grandmother where the party was and she said "it says at the Secret Hideout." That is what H calls his apartment.

I don't know who is going to be there. The only child I can think of that will be there is his coworkers little son.

I am sure the rest will be ow's family.

This is just nice. I gave birth to 2 beautiful boys for some bimbo who stole my H to enjoy them and her rotten family.

Life is so unfair.

Once again, another stab in the heart.

Maybe I am sounding like a brat. Maybe I should be happy that H is doing a nice thing for S6, but it still hurts like h^ll.

And now they get to have one big happy family get together next weekend and I am left in the dark.

Patti, I don't know, look above, I posted right before you.

I am not so sure if it was him that slowed it down or his L.

He just wants to get rid of me.

I know what you are saying, but my L also tends to hold up things when I don't want her too. Even though the lawyers work for us, they still think they are the boss.

I just don't know how much more stabs I can take before I bleed out.