Well, I'm not going to re-hash my story of what's been going on in my life again, so anyone interested, check out my thread on SSM. You may be quite surprised at what a mess I got myself into. However, the good news is that I'm getting the help I desparately needed and already feel much better emotionally & physically!
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
Went to rehab - inpatient for a little over a week. Now doing partial which means I go in for classes, etc. during the day, but go home @ night. Doing awesome!
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
Well, here I am finally at a turning point I suppose. Went for in-patient rehab for being hooked on pain meds for a little over a week; then I had another week or so of partial - I went there during the day, but came home at night.
Obviously, rough calling H over in Korea to tell him what was going on. First that his W was an addict and 2nd that she had actually checked herself into rehab. Of course, he was pissed at first; had to have time to process all of this b/c truly no one knew I had a problem - it was not causing any "problems" in my life. I also think later on down the road, H may even have been a bit pissed @ himself b/c maybe he DID see *something* but was not sure what and did not choose to investigate further.
I feel kind of "uneasy" about H and me now for some reason. We haven't seemed to have as much time on the phone as we did before he came home in December, etc. For now, I'm going to continue to focus on making sure I continue to get better and stay better and see what happens on the M front. I have to finally worry about ME first for a change.
The boys have been fine. My parents have been here for them and all they knew was that mommy needed to go to the hospital and couldn't have visitors. They are clueless as to drugs, etc., and since I've had 2 babies since the oldest was born and recently the hysterectomy, mommy being in the hospital didn't seem to bother them much.
I think H and I are still going to be ok, but I'm all of a sudden not as sure as I was before, but I'm not going to dwell on it. Until he gets home and we can try to get back to "normal," whatever "normal" is, I'm just going to go w/ the flow.
Last edited by RedHeadWife; 02/12/0803:29 AM.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
Hey all Doing really well here. Still can't believe I just went through what I went through -- I thought I was so "normal" whatever "normal" is.
Anyway, haven't had the chance to talk to H as much on the phone as before. He has a crazy schedule going on.
It seems harder this time than when he first left (this time meaning since he came home & had to go back).
He did send me roses for V Day and I'm *pretty sure* we're still ok.
I'm just taking it day by day.
Hope everyone is doing well & I'm sorry I haven't had time to comment on anyone else's sitch's. I'm still trying to catch up at work from when I was gone.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
oh honey i'm so sorry you went through that!)))))))))))))))))) praying for you and hoping you get the right help and that things will get better for you.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
Glad to hear you are doing well. You did the right thing taking care of yourself before things got worse. It's great that you have your parents to count on. I'm sure things will be fine with H.
