How are you tonight? I'm not doing too well...too many glasses of wine to help me sleep has affected me sanity.
H & I, both 32, together since 18. *M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08 * Agreed to D 6/09...very hard *D 8/10 * At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF
Hey, Beth, sorry I missed you, and sorry you had a bad night!
I'm ok. At least at this point, I can choose whether anything changes at all, right now I am resting, as far as that goes, though working on doing a better job on the things I want to do, or need to do.
E! There is always room for one more! Sort of like a hot tub! (I guess, I don't have a hot tub!)
And, there are always hugs!
(((((((E)))))))
Come by any time!
The day after H and I threw S15's birthday party a few months ago, all the ice had of course melted in the trailer that was attached to the back of the tractor...yeah, redneck... Anyway, that's where we kept the sodas. The next morning, the water was grossly hot but that's as close as I'm ever gonna get to a hot tub.
I brought some Baily's. A glass of Baily's on the rocks for everyone!
Time to sit back and relax and ponder.....
DH
What makes you want to stay with your W? Not for your kids but for you. What in your heart makes you want to stay?
I have to ask myself this and sometimes I have a hard time with the answer.
It has been a long road for you, I don't know if I can do it.....
E
Bailey's is one of the few things I'll drink. And I will drink more than I should of it. And it makes things fuzzy! And warm!
You have asked the $64,000 question. Why do I want to stay. If you have waded through both of my previous threads, you know that I have been asking that question, or questions related to it, quite a bit lately. And not really coming up with a very satisfying answer. In fact, the more I think about it, the less answer I have. I think I am uncomfortable with not staying. I'm a big chicken, and a conflict avoider, besides.
At least, I get to choose when or if something happens, I think. She seems content to let things go like this forever.
So, E, I didn't see any post from you today, about you. You have specific downness, or just general downness? Anything you want to talk about?
