or maybe he's like my h and simply wants to go to the casino and out to dinner and isn't thinking beyond that...isn't thinking that this might mean something to you. so tread cautiously all the same.
I agree, SallyM. The negative part of me thinks he is taking me out to make sure I have a good holiday, before he leaves me....
I will have fun. I always have fun at the casino....
Journaling: Came to log on this morning and H's sign on was still up, and a condo listing for this area was on the monitor. No snooping, there was no way around seeing it. I have told him I am searching for condos in this area because I cannot afford this house if we D. He was shocked when I had the school district mail me a boundary map (want to keep D6 in the same school). Either H is planning on buying a condo (no way!! He hates them) or he is apparently going to help me buy one...
ON A GOOD NOTE:
At 9:32am this morning, my first baby was born. Only took 24.5 hours to get her out, and to this day she is still a procrastinator. lol I love that little blonde thing. We are going up to her school for her morning snack, bringing her request...Krispy Kreme doughnuts.
oh lwb, happy birthday to your sweet daughter. and congrats to you...what a precious memory (albeit probably not as cute at the time, lol)
I feel like I'm such a suspicious little thing now. I'm sorry I said to tread carefully, because I do really hope you have fun. but I can't help it, be careful of you, too, okay? and whatever you do, dress so he knows just what he might be missing out on. lol.
maybe he is helping you find a condo, who knows. are you sure you can't keep the house? did you talk to the finance person? I admire you for the forsight into getting the maps for the school bounderies...good for you for doing that. you are one smart cookie.
should your h leave you, I have no doubt you will be okay. I know it will be hard, but you will be okay. no doubt about it.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
(Another December birthday! S6 turns 7 on the 30th.)
On your H possibly trying to make some good memories with you before possibly leaving -- (at the risk of betraying my normally pessimistic outlook) may I suggest focusing on the positives? Go and have a good time out with your H if he is so willing -- acting "as if" -- it can't do any harm, ... cause if your H is going to leave, he's going to leave.
No sense in worrying about crossing that bridge until you actually get there.
What's the alternative? You don't go and (if he is so inclined) he still leaves? Focus on what you do have control of.
If you can go without any expectations for the longterm outcome, I am sure you will be just fine. I have faith that you, Lwb, have it in you. I know you have the strength of of character and the warmth of heart to make the most of this time, to enjoy yourself and to exude your great spirit. And if your H can go forward with leaving after that, then he's not worthy of you after all. His loss.
SallyM LOL at it not being so cute then!! So true, but H and I have fun 'reliving' the day yesterday and today. He said last night at 10pm "You were begging for jello, got it, and promptly threw it up". Yep, I am one hot chick.
nocode, you rock.
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Go and have a good time out with your H if he is so willing -- acting "as if" -- it can't do any harm,
I did just that. We got ready and went out. The car ride was a bit quiet on the way, but we chatted a bit. Had some drinks, gambled and then dinner. He was very thoughtful and polite. A bit quiet, but warmed up later. The time went really fast. I enjoyed myself, had so much fun playing the slots (If we actually had a lot of money, I would sooo be in trouble), and acted fun and breezy....... While H went to get a beer, a guy sat next to me and started talking. He quickly got up when H got back. It was a very good PMA moment for LWB....
We are home now, put the little ones to bed and he is getting his stuff ready for work (works at 3am), so I snuck on here.....
We did make an appt for D6. She has been having tummy aches on and off for weeks now. I am a little worried, but we'll see tomorrow. I don't think its stress because we honestly don't fight in front of the kids, and we both do a very good job of 'bucking up' when we have the kids/are around them.
