Feb was ROUGH and Mar hasn't been that much easier, but at least no cops were called.
My H has serious control/emotional blackmail/security issues. SERIOUS. I'm not saying that to be mean, it's just true and I hope if he reads this he doesn't get hurt or pissed at me for saying so.
I've decided to initially give H six months to get therapy, antidepressants, A.A., church, WHATEVER it takes to get him on some solid ground. After six months, I intend to check his progress and if it's considerable enough, I think then that we can just play it by ear, you know, no deadlines.
Yeah, I'm not making any of this stuff up. Living my life like this indefinately, I can just see myself in 50 years on my deathbed asking myself why I did it. I experience SO much JOY, I want it for my H too, bless his heart.
A new reality of wrecked expectations, single parenthood, two jobs and a GONE ex-H, would stink. But staying in an R with someone who flat-out refuses to be responsible for themselves and their own happiness would be far, far worse.
