Tonight would be date #4 but he sprung lunch on me yesterday (nice surprise) so tonight is date #5. No kiss. He has met the peanut - I wanted to see if he truly does like kids like he says and I wanted to see what she thought of him.
She likes him, did the Mom loves CB....(that's his acronym :P ) and he said she's a blast. He's very cool whenever he's around her. Doesn't even seem put off if he sees/hears a tantrum (happened once).
He's VOLUNTARILY met my folks - big for me since X was one who would hang back until I was ready. I was taking Peanut over to mom's and he just walked right over with me! He gives me butterflies, but I am very cautious.
He could be viewing us as just friends (which is ok too) or he could be shy or respectful!? Not even one attempt to kiss me. He holds doors, pays for dinner, unless I've offered - which I have a few times...
BUTTERFLIES!
Talked for 2 hours last night.
ACK!
What worries me more than anything (and as I've been told I need to give it all to God) is my past. I know I'll need to tell him in due time, especially given X's history of telling God and everybody (and leaving out his faults of course ) but we talked some yesterday and that in his opinion is the one thing that a marriage can't recover from.
I'm not proposing marriage, but I do want him to know that he shouldn't judge me on past decisions that I regret and tried to fix.....and that it wasn't all just me looking for something to do. But I don't want to overjustify myself either.
Wow - look at me. I wrote a book!
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
it's just a good song!
He gives me butterflies, but I am very cautious.
respectful!? Not even one attempt to kiss me. He holds doors, pays for dinner, unless I've offered - which I have a few times... 