This book has already helped me heal, but at least understanding that H's actions are typical, and my feelings (rage, hurt, betrayal, etc) are completely normal.
And what you said earlier is true. If only the people that actually NEED to read these books, would do so. So much of what I have read, I would want H to listen to or read himself.
We aren't telling anyone here for that very reason, don't want to be under a microscope if/when we are back for good.
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Trying to keep myself busy and distracted but not easy.
Is it just me, or may I ask a question. I am wondering if I heard the I am so sorry a little more often if it makes you feel a little better. I do not know. I guess I feel that when I don't hear it from my W especially but the OM as well that they are more sorry that we know than they are about what happened. Just a thought or a question,
Funny, we have Thanksgiving coming up, so I guess I can thank ful to have my health and 2 dogs who I know love me.
I'm sorry you find yourself in this situation. It sucks and there is no nice way to clean that up. It just plain sucks. You DO need a shovel but not to bury your feelings. Now if you want to dig a hole and put the OM in it, well, that I understand.
Actually you need to get some of the horror/anger out of your system, so how about taking the shovel and beating a telephone pole until it breaks? Or some similar activity that simply gets the aggression out. I recommend using a rubber hose to beat on your bed. In private, preferably.
I too have to see the OP because our children go to the same school. Believe me, I'd like to take my shovel with me, just once.
I have a shovel and I'm not afraid to use it. Stubby
