Thanks Yoyo.....the crazy thing is, I was bummed for a bit, until I realized that A-Nothing has changed, she is nuts, and B-She really does want to see the C, I think it is hard for her to admit why. She told me that she needs to deal with a lot of guilt and other things. I am trying to go with the flow and keep expectations out of the equation. I sometimes feel like getting served would be a good thing. I had two differant chicks flirting with me today and it felt really really good. I mean really good.
Me: 44 S: 17 and 7 Final-6-13-08 I once went to a psychic who told me I would soon feel cheated......
I'm sure the flirting made your day. The WAS makes us feel like something is wrong with us. It takes a while for us to realize they are the flawed one. It is so nice to know that someone finds you attractive. You go MC! Hey, you looked nice in the video,so I'm not surprised.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
Well I tried a little more of Frank_D's advice today. I called CW about a logistical issue and she started griping about having to rush from S6's swim lesson to pick S16 up. (One ends at 7:40 and the other at 8 and are 15 miles apart). Instead of being the old MC who would have jumped in and offered to do one pick up, I responded, "you should be able to make it if you hurry" I am working till about 7 today and I may stop by the swim lesson on my way home, but I will have the company vehicle so I cannot drive anyone.
Me: 44 S: 17 and 7 Final-6-13-08 I once went to a psychic who told me I would soon feel cheated......
Well I would appreciate a few prayers, good thoughts or carma be sent my way. This afternoon we have our counseling session. When CW brought it up, she wanted to go to a MC. Later she has back pedaled on what the intent of it was. I am trying to go into it with no expectations, but that is easier said than done.
For some reason, I am very nervous. I am trying to contain my expectations and plan for the worst, but none the less, the nerves are getting to me.
Me: 44 S: 17 and 7 Final-6-13-08 I once went to a psychic who told me I would soon feel cheated......
Well, I survived it. Not the result I personally wanted, but not a terrible outcome either. We both told our stories as to what brings us to the C. I did a good job in not sounding pathetic and only wanting the M to work. CW took her turn and somewhat emotionally stated that she was there to see how we could be better divorced parents. My inside the head voice said "wake up and wuit the A????" It was relatively emotional for her, not me. I teared up a couple times but never more than that. Part of it was that I was in uniform as I had to go back to work and that changes my state of mind somewhat.
CW agreed to see him again. He seems nice and at first I started to dislike him because he went into a discussion as to how divorce works that if one party wants it and the other doesn't it doesn't matter and that it will happen anyway. He talked about the grief involved etc and I started to think the guy was just rolling over and that there was nothing he could do to help. Then it dawned on me that he never once looked at me during this, he was only looking at her. He also suggested using mediation rather than a adversarial divorce. Again I wondered what he was doing, but then I wondered if he is starting the process and he is building one or both of us up for the end result.
Who knows.
Theo if you are around, give me a call. I will be up for a bit (about an hour)
Me: 44 S: 17 and 7 Final-6-13-08 I once went to a psychic who told me I would soon feel cheated......
