Haven't posted in a while, I read a lot, but there hasn't been much new to add.
She is now pushing hard for filing. She is going on a 2 1/2 week vacation overseas (w/out kids) and wants to file before she leaves, wants the closure.
I'm still confused why the push to move forward. We live apart, have separated finances, share the kids, only thing left is the legal part. Why can't that wait? Why can't we be a little patient to see if anything can be worked out?
90% of the time we are the best of friends. She is happy to share a bottle of wine on a Saturday afternoon while the kids play and she can tell me all about her job and what's going on with her. She checks in on me occasionally to see how I am doing. She definately doesn't avoid contact. So if she weren't my STBXW, I would think she likes me enough for me to risk asking her out. But, she still asks how am I doing on the parenting agreement, have I got a lawyer, can we file by the end of the month, etc, so show me that she is committed to the D. Very mixed messages, at least to someone that is hoping for a sign that we are getting closer.
So, here is the reason for my post. Does filing mean anything anyway? If she is this committed to filing, maybe (probably) we are done anyway. Perhaps I should suck it up, face the reality and move it along. In my heart the filing symbolizes the last nail in the coffin. Is it?
I have some friends that feel if I don't stand in the way of filing, drop the rope as I have heard it put, maybe she will relax a bit more and be more open to realizing that I'm not the same person she left.
Is filing the last nail or should I just view it as one more event in the process, nothing has changed, she planned this all along, and just keep on with the same DBing strategy as before.
