My D is done. You (and JR) are the only reason I still come here. I so want you guys to make it. You are so close. You need to find the strength somewhere.
built4speed My Saga "How others deal with the gifts you've given is not your decision, but theirs." - Richard Bach
I just don't know that I can keep this up endlessly. After all, look how long it took to get here... I just don't have the strength I had in the beginning of my stand. Not by a long shot.
Don't you dare wonder how you are going to have the strength to keep going. It took YOU this long to get here but it may take HIM a little longer to understand all of it. You keep on with what you are doing because it sure seems to be working.
If there was someone out there that understood about waiting, it is me. I still sit on the fence. Some days I wonder if it wouldn't be easier if I just jumped off but I always come up with the same answer...NO. You will give it all you have as I will. We have been at it this a long time, a little longer won't hurt us. You can do this.
I think you are like me in a way, you start to see positives and it scares you. The easiest way out is to back down. Ask yourself, what have your worked so hard for? Did you spend all this time just to give up when he started coming around a little bit? Remember, baby steps. He is taking them now. You need to stop and let him catch up with you.
(Look what it took to drag me out of the woodwork)
Just after I had posted I went over to read your posts and I read CDG's post of yesterday.
I was feeling really down because my situation is somewhat like yours (Amy C).
The advice CDG gave you really helped me see what my H must be going through and that I can't give up even though he doesn't contact me.
Right now I'm confused as what to do. My H has gone dark on me and my question is how does one show the spouse that changes have been made when they won't contact you? Do we just remain in a stalemate. From CDG's response and the other posts here it looks like we just keep waiting.
The task ahead of you is never as great as the Power behind you ~ unknown
[quote=COG]I just don't have the strength I had in the beginning of my stand.
Not by a long shot.
YES YOU DO!
Your welcome for the support Amy! I'll hold ya up for awhile when you get tired. Your not a quitter either! You have more strength now than then! Look at all the knowledge you have gained.......knowledge is powerful strength sweetie.
Keep on keep'n on!
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
slow to little progress is still progress sweet cheeks! Hang in and hang on.... and get your butt back to church girlie. Putting all this at the foot of the cross is where all your strength has come from.... I'm not at all surprised you feel weak considering .... are you? I think maybe you should have a heart to heart with Jesus, Amy.... bet your strength increases.
smooches, ~lost
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
I just don't know that I can keep this up endlessly.
You definately don't have to keep this up without end, there'll be an end alright and in God's time. Our job is to keep moving forward, one step, one moment, one day at a time. Let yesterday stay yesterday, tomorrow be unknown, and the precious moment is NOW.
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After all, look how long it took to get here..
As my W keeps telling me, "it took us a long time to get there, and it'll take us a long time to get back". One baby step at a time. Move forward with YOUR life. Let go your neediness, selfishness, and fear and move on. Forgive your H, let him go, and live out your reality with joy and humility. It can always be worse.
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I just don't have the strength I had in the beginning of my stand.
You may be loosing strength, but you still have courage and faith. Reach out to the Lord, and ask Him to be your crutch.
This is not all about YOU AmyC. The hardest times are those when you count the days, how long you have struggled, and you realize how far you've yet to go. Worse, there's little promise that your H will ever change. Been there and done that. I'm glad I stuck it out. It's still not perfect, probably never will be, but I was very surprised when my sitch changed. I did'nt expect it, I was hopeful, but I just did'nt expect her to ever change. But she did, and it took a few YEARS longer than I wanted.
Miracles do happen. Maybe not on our timeframe, maybe not in the specific ways that we demand, but faith is the key in seeing and believing that they are always done perfectly.
My prayers are with you. It's tough, it's hard, it seems fruitless, and impossible. Well, I wonder............
Love,
COG
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