Was thinking today about stuff that I have been putting off for, well like way to long. Stuff pertaining to taking care of me. I need to get my eyes checked, I am pretty sure that I need to start wearing glasses. Also, I have a few teeth that have been bothering me, I need to get to a dentist. These are both a couple of things I know if I quit putting them off, and just do them, the end result would most likely be (although less money) the quality of my life would surely improve.
Another couple of long term things I should look at are quitting smoking and losing weight/working out.
Put my house back together......put me back together. Will be work, some of it hard, and uncomfortable, but I think in the long run the dividends will be well worth it.
I am putting myself from now on as MY primary concern. What she does is her choice.......I sometimes think that if in 6 months / 1 year I realize these goals.....I may be way beyond wanting any of my old life back. That is not neccessarily a bad thing either.
Hey G, I like the change in your attitude ... you're starting to sound more optimistic, keep focusing on you and your life. It's great that you have plans to take care of yourself, perhaps it would help you to you set some smaller steps/goals which would guide you on the way. (maybe you could come up with some DB goals in the same time ... I just couldn't resist the urge to say that ) Keep it up, we're here to help you
My attitude is better as of late. Goals, Gal'ing, keeping busy do help. Alot. To sit around, and constantly think, wallow in all the junk that goes with all of this does me no good. I will not say I am done with DBing yet. I still have a small grain of hope that my marriage might be resolved happily some day. I am not pinning my future on it though.
I would say that this site has done me a world of good. Has made me think and grow. Has kept me from doing things that would have only prolonged some of the more intense level of pain.
I am not saying that I am this guy. But if all of that this site does for someone is keep them from doing the real stupid ideas that most likely swirl around in all of our heads. The ideas that would most likely end us up in jail or worse. Then I would say that this site has served it purpose for good. If the best that happens in a given situation, is that a LBS's is able to walk away head held high. Knowing that there is still a future ahead, and that this possible future could be good, or even better than before. This site has done good.........
I am doing........well I would say at this point, better than ok, maybe not quite good yet, but getting there!!!
Hey you guys, have a great Saturday! I am off to work now!
When I drove home from work tonight, I choose the route I usually take. This takes me right past her place.
Hmmm the lights are on, must be home on a Saturday night. Then I see her just sitting there on the front porch looking at the ground. Was a weird feeling, I kinda froze. What do I do? Do I stop and say hi? Do I toot the horn and wave? I just put my eyes forward and kept driving. I do not know if she saw me or not, her back was to me......she probably did as I drove up the street.
For a bit, there was this old feeling........I hope she is doing ok? I guess it did make me miss her a bit. I dunno, I think I will change my route on the way home. This one is just the most convienent, and sort of my pattern.....actually long before she moved in there.
I am not overwhelmed with any emotion about this, but it did strike a nerve a bit. Maybe having your her own place is making her think?
Maybe she was looking at a bug on the floor. You don't know what is going through her mind so stop trying NDDT. Change your route and get back to moving on with your bad self.
Ughh on my way out the door (again) to work, I am getting tired of working so much. today will make 48 hours in 4 days.....tommorow I work 1/2 day and then I have a little much needed time off. My cold is slowly slipping away so I am feeling better that way, but am getting burnt out from so much working...
Just looking in , have not caught up yet with everything but Swashy is right , do not try to figure out where she is at , only end up driving yourself crazy.
One conclusion I have come too. Life goes on....... People leave us. Friends move away. People die. Spouses leave. But life goes on.....
Time keeps moving forward. As long as we are here, we are getting older, but still alive. Our time is limited. Time dont stop for no one. Life dont stop for anything. Keeps marching forward.
So today I have a choice. Do I wallow in the misery because of people I miss, people that are no longer in my life, for whatever reason? Or do I live? Do I do something to make my day better? Someone else's day better?
When things are not the way I want them to be I need to remember, maybe things are not the way that I THINK they should be... but they are the way they are. I need to just accept this.
My choice today......LIVE the best day I can! What is your choice today?
When things look bleak, and your mind is in turmoil. For a second just stop, take a step back, look around. Its not all bad!!!
Well enough of my attempt at a phylisophical <----- ha ha I am a great speller. I am off to a 1/2 day of work, and then I get my daughter for the first time since last Weds....I am pumped about that!!! If anyone gets what I am trying to say, then be happy for even just a bit today!!!!!!
Ha ha ha. After all my nice thoughts and attitude this morning. Like 5 minutes after I posted this, I walk out the door to leave to work, I pull the door shut and the god #%$^ doorknob breaks off in my hand. I let it pizz me off for a bit, but I got over it. I fixed it when I got back home. All is good now.
I have to contact wife tonight as I have to ask her several things about our childs schedule, so I guess we will see how that goes.. I got my girl now, so I got to go. Talk later!
... I just couldn't resist the urge to say that 
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