I'm still down in the dumps. Feeling lonely. Feeling frustrated. There was something H and I had agreed that we needed to talk to D17 about. I requested that we do it together so we would be on the same page and give her a clear message. Last night was not convenient for him. Tonight I wasn't sure what time I would be home from work, but I said not before 5. About 4pm I called him and said it would be closer to 6pm. He said fine. As I am driving home D17 calls me on cell phone and said she and dad had just had a talk. Of course, she was mad at ME! Made me mad that he couldn't wait for me like we had discussed! When I asked him why he talked to her without me he said he didn't know how long I would be and he didn't feel like waiting (I was just 10 minutes later than I had said). GGGGRRR!!! I am trying to co-parent, but I am the one to have to hold the pieces together when he walks out the door.
I am also sad. H said that a good friend (the best man in our wedding) called today to tell us plans for their son's wedding in December. I asked if they know we were getting divorced (they live in a different state so we don't talk as often as we used to). H basically said, "of course"--so non chalantly! H did tell friend to mail the invitation to both of us at our house. At least that makes me think he wouldn't take ow. Maybe in a few days I'll call them (and see what H said as to the reason we are getting divorced....although I guess that doesn't matter).
D17 and I are going away for the weekend. Hopefully I will feel better when I get back home. Thanks for asking about me.
Hey Mattie, Sorry to hear your husband is being a jerk as usual.
It sounds like the getaway will do you and your daughter some good. I would love to be able to do that, but it's just not possible for me. My daughter cheers for football until the first week of November. They have about a week break and then they start cheering for basketball which is worse because they play two games a week! But hey she loves it, so if it makes her happy, then I'm happy.
Hope you and your daughter have a wonderful time. Make some wonderful memories and take lots of pictures!
Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
I feel like today is Friday because I am taking off work tomorrow. Unfortunately, I have at least 3 days of work to accompish before I leave!!! In addition to work I promised I'd take my MIL out to dinner.
I know I need to find a way to make myself happy--just don't have the time or energy right now!!!
I did have a nice, quick get away. One of these days I'm going to take a real vacation....a nice long one. I enjoyed being with family, had fun, and hardly thought of my sitch. Not one person mentioned H's name! (a bit strange, but helpful!)
Hi Mattie, I'm so glad that you and your DD had a nice trip. It's so nice to get away sometimes isn't it? But you know what I'm such a homebody, there's not place like home to me.
Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
Glad you had a nice trip. I know what you mean about just taking a trip and relaxing somewhere and enjoy different things. Thank you for thinking of me. It has been really busy here. Having a ranch this time of year is real busy especially when I work full time. My H hasn't changed I heard he was living with her which I know he wouldn't all the time because he doesn't want anyone to control him. He needs to grow up. Its kinda funny he gets after our oldest son for taking time off and going to see his GF and he disappears yesterday morning and won't answer his phone and everyone is trying to get ready to go on this new job. I guess when you think you are God you don't have to be accountable. He tells me that he has provided a good living for us and what more do we want. He is a world of his own. I just wish sometimes I could just go ahead and end it. I do all the work for everyone and she is getting all the benefits except the money and it still comes to me. I was thinking as cranky as he gets with me I wonder if he ever does that to her. I can't wait till the new wears off and you know a leopard never changes his spots so maybe someday she will get to see the real him and him see the real her.
In addition to work I promised I'd take my MIL out to dinner. 
