Amy, Do you want to talk to someone? If so, I'll be happy to post my email address here and you can email me your phone number and I'll call you. It's not often that I do this but you sound like you are in a very difficult place right now.
I'm here for you, just as everyone else is as well. Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Amy I just wanted to say that I pray for you daily. I want so much for you to get better and have a better life. You have been my inspiration since I found this board. Your undying faith is what led me back to church and probably saved my life. I know I am not helping with your sitch but I just wanted to let you know you are amazing. You inspire so many people every day.
I know you cling to the scriptures and I wanted to tell you that the one I have been clinging to lately is Psalms 91. I am just trying to make myself have that faith.
M 32 H 39 SS 15, SD 12, S11, S9, D7, D6, D4 E/A 02/06 WAS 03/06 RH 05/06 On 07/07 told me he wants to leave again. On 08/11/07 Walked out again.
People say "When God closes a door he opens a window." They forget to tell you "It is hell in the hallway!"
I understand how anger can lock you up tight and stiffle all the potential good and positive. Remember Amy.... God works all things together for the good of those who love Him. It's little consolation in the face your circumstances.... but hang on to that.... a little is better than none.
My email is on my profile.... I've taken an anti-venom... so if you want to spew some poison and get it out.... please do. I'm here for you girlie if I can help in any way.... don't hesitate!
~lost
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
Amy...sometimes anger cleanses the soul. At least it does for me. Get angry, get mad but don't let it take you down. Vent, vent, vent......don't keep it bottled up. If you do, you will become a basket case like me.
I'm also available through email if you need an ear.
