Grace, thanks for your responses. I'm sorry you have had some rough days and I know you have been doing the best you can. Your daughters are blessed to have you for a mom. Even though you are hurting, you have taken the time to help me and that says alot. God bless you Grace. Love, Violets
Thanks IMP for the advice. It is so difficult to lie next to someone and just want to escape. Sometimes I think I am having a nervous breakdown or maybe that is just wishful thinking. If that happened no one would expect anything from me and I could go for a nice long stay somewhere. Thanks again, I really do appreciate the insight. Love, Violets
Sometimes I think I am having a nervous breakdown or maybe that is just wishful thinking. If that happened no one would expect anything from me and I could go for a nice long stay somewhere.
It sounds like wishful thinking. I say this b/c of your comment that no one would expect anything of you. What do you think is being expected of you now and by whom? Do you have unrealistic expectations of yourself maybe? What kind of feedback are you getting from others and are you listening to it? Just some things to think about.
Grace, everything has been calm here for a few days. Yesterday H. took me out for the day shopping and to a nice restaurant, and then to a museum. I felt sad the whole time, just sad and down. I think everyone expects that everything should just be ok, and it isn't. Now that the A. is over I feel so down and just blah. I don't feel any love for my husband. I care for him and I want him to be ok, but I don't love him and there is nothing he can do at this point to make things better. Last week I did not get a chance to see my C. but I will see her this week and I am hoping to maybe talk through some of this. I am really bothered by the fact that the OW was in control of my life and I feel as though she is still in control. I think the anger that I felt for both of them kept me motivated for a long time and now that the anger has dissipated somewhat I just feel depressed. I think going away to a nice room and weaving baskets might be a nice break! Lol! Thanks for asking questions Grace. Love, Violets
Thank you IMP for the book , and I will try to find it tomorrow because I could use some sunshine in my life right now! Thanks and many blessings to you. Love, Violets
Little hint. If you have time, read it at the bookstore. I have been known to read a complete book in one sitting. Saves a few bucks and gets you out of the house for a while.
Good idea. We have a nice Barnes and Noble here with a cafe area. I had sons over today for lunch and didn't get a chance to go to the bookstore, but I am planning for tomorrow. It seems I have forgotten how to live life and not think about all this stuff. It is like walking around in a fog and trying to find my way out. Thanks for the help. Love, Violets
My personal favorite at B & N is the comfy chairs. Don't tell anyone, but I have dozed off while there. But most, if not all, of us have felt as you do. What worked for me was to keep a positive attitude and just keep moving. And I had some difficult times.
