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Its actually a decent movie, IMO. I dont like him all that much either but he did a good job.

What do you know, I actually did write that! had to go back and make sure.

CVA,

I would not steer you wrong Bro.

It is OK to fall off of that wagon as long as you land here.
Make sure you do not fall into the pile of Shyt from the beast that is pulling that wagon!

W33

Thanks W. Immersed myself in work today for the first time in a while and what do you know, the day went by pretty quick.

yay!!!

Thanks Mandi.

Forgot to say how fitting your name is, Sweetheart from Alabama!
Doing a southern accent as I type this

Thanks, but I think there are some who would beg to differ on the sweet part (namely XH and H).

I am just a big ole wet blanket today....sorry.

(doing a southern accent while I type this as well )

Kind of tired of doing this cuz it never seems to be the best ending to a day, but here goes.

W had S9 call me from the car. I talked to the kids and W got on the phone. Basically barely polite. No feeling at all, unlike when we are actually in the same room. Why is it that when she is not around me, it is so easy to be so cold? It makes me wonder if that is how she wants it to be? or is she just still protecting herself? I assume the latter, but hard nonetheless.

Once on the phone, I ask how her day was and after "fine", I just let it sit, dead air. At least a minute..."how was your day?", I think it was barely courtesy, not a real wanting to know. I then ask, very nicely, "why do you have S9 call me", I think it caught her offguard that I would be so bold to ask that. Not great responses, "I was busy, driving" PLEASE. Ive seen you drive with your knees, eat a sandwich and talk to your friends on the phone.

Why not just say, I really dont want to talk right now? OK, I shouldnt have asked, but all you WAW out there, WAW78, Sandi, whomever, why are you all so chickensh*t, you can throw us out, but just cant say, "I would rather not talk to you tonight" or whatever?

Angry, no. disappointed in her, yes. I am sure it comes across angry to most of you reading this. Not the tirade from yesterday, I just dont get it. Maybe it is because she is around her family.

Not one comment that so and so asked about you. Whatever. I ask if anyone up there has anything interesting to say, "no, not really". Thanks for expanding. GEEEZ? Really, how long does this go on like this?

Impatient, yes. It shows when I have no contact.

I have not hugged my kids for a few days now. No physical contact with anyone, namely your family, just flat out sucks. People need that, I need that. Yes, I said NEED. I am actually suprised people like my brother can live day-to-day. He is a sad, sad human being. 60+ yrs old now, never married, no love as far as I know. Just a sad, lonely man who is bitter about life in general.

I dont want to end up like that.

Sorry, I should just shut up now.

C'mon, CVA. Get back up on that wagon. I understand about the lack of touch. I'm not touchy with anyone other than my wife and I miss that so much. She does at least give me the occassional hug.

1. You're not going to end up like your brother.
2. I'm going to presume that you're starting to get a little frustrated with your W (OK, that's fact, not presumption). I'm presuming that you're starting to detach and seeing that you might have to date again and that's terrifying. Right there with you. I never really dated anyone other than my wife and that was basically immediate love/connection. I have no idea how to take someone on a date. Plus, I'm terribly shy around people I don't know. Not as bad as I used to be, but still. Dude, you run a company, you're out a lot, you've got a good sense of humor, and WAW said you're a DILF. You're golden.

Let this wave of frustration pass on through and over. It'll get better.

BD

I cant type the right word but GRUUUUNNTTTTT.

When I saw you say C'mon CVA, I felt like, man, pull your head out CVA!!!!

I just cant seem to detach dammit. "My kids, my kids, my kids" is all that goes through my mind. You see my problem dont you, Just like in Top Gun when Cougar (no, not the Cougars we may all have to chase!), the character, throws his wings on the desk and says "I'm holdin on too tight". The Captain says "C'mon Cougar, we've seen this before...". Sound familiar?

Well crap, I am going to go take an ambien and just sleep like the dead. No dreams, no nothin, just sleep. I am sure I will be better tomorrow.

Going to see Nomo recommended C tomorrow (I think). She is good and as Nomo says an expert. We are not, so listen to her.

Dude, I know what I gotta do, I just need to do it. CVA can do it. Just watched "300", those guys are freakin studs. I dont know why I just said that. Shows you how my mind is wandering, ritalin anyone?

Humor not completely gone.
CVA Out