Well here goes........in about 3 hours. I feel pretty good so far, although I am kind of nervous. One thing I realized this morning as I sat out on my deck, having my coffee and cigarette. I am tired. I am tired of all this merry go round, indecision. Tired of all the worrying. Tired of all of the stress. It wears a guy down. Makes ya confused, not willing to do anything.
I need more direction and structure. I need a plan. Something I can commit to and work on. I need less stress and more sleep. I am tired.
Take a deep breath...I will say a little prayer for you that all goes well!! Stay calm PMA!! Patience...I need help in that area too!!! talk later, Christa
H-32 Me-29 T-10years M-4yr (10/04) Me- WAW 1/07 I filed for D 2/07 D put on hold 5/07 H re-files for D 9/08 WOW! trying MC 10/08
"Work like you don't need the money, dance like nobody is watching, love like you've never been hurt!"
Well she has came and went. I read her and gave her my list. When I got to the part where I said:
"I also want you to know that I am still willing and open to working things out with you"
She got sort of an angry/sad look on her face and said , "I dont know what to say to that"
I told her that she did not need to say anything, that I just wanted her to know where I am at. She was clearly uncomfortable and in a hurry to leave after that.
Also the kid let the damn cat out.....
I will probably get no sleep now today before I go to work tonight.
She also alluded to that she is going to need money for our childs tuition pretty soon. I didnt say much to that as I am not quite ready to discuss financials with her yet. I think when I do, it is going to blow this thing wide open.
This is going south on me. I am going to take things one at a time. Lets get her move done first.....
Man, this sucks. I am going to go try to catch that stupid cat!
Ha Ha the people next door let there dog out, should have seen how fast that cat flew in the door!!! Well that problem is solved. If only the rest of my life could be so easy........
NDDT Hey, if you feel it really slipping away, back further off, what can that hurt at this point? I know you know that, but just here for support on that point as it is still the hardest thing to do for all of us who are drawn into our Spouse as they pull further away.
I think we all need to go to San Diego for some Nomo therapy!
Me: 46 Wife: 39 D: 13 S: 11, 9, 7 Bomb 3.2.07, Sep Same Day, D papers 11.1.07 Current Status - Wants to take me through Discovery, I will go to prison first.
Sounds like it went about as well as expected. You got out what you wanted to say, she heard it, and I think you should feel good about it. Goal accomplished, right?
Funny about the cat. And Matt's comment made me laugh too.
NDDT, I think now is the time for you to just keep giving her timne and space, and focus on making you and your D as happy as you can. Try to focus exclusively on that, and GALing, and don't think about your W for a while. Whenever you have contact (eg, kid exchange), just be the happiest, most upbeat and positive guy you can. That's it (until the money talk).
Ok, check you later, Nomo
PS - if you need a get away, come on down to Texas for a bit. I will show you a good time.
M 39 W 39 M'd 10 yrs; T 14 yrs S7 D4 Bomb 5-8-05 W not working on M 1-22-07; EA 2-22 DB 4-10 S 6-11 No more C Link
Hey guys, thanks. This next week is going to be hard. I am going to do my best to keep my chin up and get thru it. I am going to be as backed off as I can for the next couple of weeks. By the end of this month there is going to be a money talk. Nomo I would like nothing better than to get away for a time, but I dont see it happening.
Was thinking about one thing the lawyer said the other day, keep my house if at all possible. I could always declare bankruptcy and I would not lose my house......hmmmmm its a thought. Need to somehow get things straightened out on all of this. Going to lay down for a bit as I have to work later today.
PMA!! Patience...I need help in that area too!!! talk later, Christa