I was looking for you Monday night. You hadn't posted in a long time, I noticed.
Thanks for coming 'round, Mufasa...
Yes, I have been in and through most of those places you mentioned but I am really not worthy of any "congratulations". I'm in a dead zone of sorts now. I've stood down.
That fact notwithstanding, I was with my husband for about an hour tonight when I stopped by the house to drop something off. I was just supposed to run in and run back out. But he needed to talk and I noticed so we talked a while.
We're friends.
No more.
No less.
And I'm really trying to just be thankful for that much.
Haven't seen you around lately.... please tell me you haven't gotten lost in myspace land.
No.
Actually, everything bores me.
It took me a while before I realized what's been wrong with me lately. I don't have any passion for anything anymore. The only time I know peace is when I get to be at the house with H and the kids, which is rare and a false sense of peace, at best.
I wonder if one day he will ever realize that this fight to save my marriage to HIM is what has practically turned me into the walking dead?
Haven't seen you around lately.... please tell me you haven't gotten lost in myspace land.
No.
Actually, everything bores me.
It took me a while before I realized what's been wrong with me lately. I don't have any passion for anything anymore. The only time I know peace is when I get to be at the house with H and the kids, which is rare and a false sense of peace, at best.
I wonder if one day he will ever realize that this fight to save my marriage to HIM is what has practically turned me into the walking dead? Sounds to me like you have got a little depression going on there kid. Be careful, don't let it take hold of you!
Amy - I think a lot of folks are feeling just like that......I know I am. Funny - the only thing I'm NOT bored or worried about right now is he and I.
Finances could have a lot to do with that. I've been stressing HUGE over finances......and still no $$ from him. He has yet to actually file our paperwork so we're technically still married, subsequently no order for CS....so no money for KS.
Sorry to hijack - just wanted to let you know I understand and I'm here for you if you wanna talk.
Oh and BTW - friends with H is good considering. Baby steps...right?
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
OK ladies I have a question for you because this is something I REALLY struggle with.
You may recall my wife wanted for us "to be friends again". Shoot I never realized we weren't until after we were separated but apparently that's how she felt. So I really struggle with the idea of just being friends and nothing more. It is so, so counter to my own belief system. This is the woman I fell in love with, dedicated my life to as a partner and spouse, built a family with and as a husband dedicated myself to providing for and caring for her.
But how can we be only friends or satisfied with that? I don't get it, I gave all my worldly existence to her and our family and now I am supposed to just toss most of that overboard? Why would I want to be or just settle with being friends with someone who has shown me just about the ultimate in rejection? Who turned her back and toss out all the good along with what she didn't like.
How can you be satisfied with just being friends?
Last edited by catfan; 08/02/0702:16 PM.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
I'm not saying she should be satisfied with "just friends" but saying it's a huge step for them. Their ups and downs, his anger towards her - friends is good for right now.
Perpetual friends? Nah - not for me. But I think for H and I we've been working so hard on open communication lately and we're also becoming better friends. You have to be friends, but it's a positive step towards more.
Did I make any sense?
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
