Well I am get extremely frustrated with my situation over the past 6 months. I had a talk with W (If you can even call it that) she got angry because she does not want to even talk about things. I am unhappy due to I believe our situation is not moving forward and she in no fully onboard. I got so angry to day I just felt like saying screw it I will find someone else and let her live in her own misery.

She says that I am needey and always pressuring her, but I think back and I really have not been. She is completely involved with her job and has very little time or patience for me or our children. Our quality time over the past 2 months has been next to nothing, but yet she finds the time to go out until 5 AM 2 weekends in a row. I am really pissed that she thinks I have been pressuring her when I know for a fact I have not been. I guess me being in the same house is pressure I dont know. Maybe I just need to leave the house a few days a week after the kids go to bed.

During our not so friendly conversation she admited to getting back with me mainly due to the kids and that she still has doubts I can be the man she needs. In the same breath she said she is also optimitic about us but unsure. She says that she feels like everyone is wanting something from her. All this is going on and she wants us to make important life decisions like moving and getting new jobs etc. Lately I am unhappy with the fact that I think we are getting back into a rut with Sex and everything else, but no matter how I try to tell her this she gets extremely hostile and the conversation gos nowhere. So I have really limited these conversation and really just let her do her own thing.

Well I am going out of town for 3 day next week and really am happy to get the time away. Just wish I knew the right thing to do.


Me - 34
W - 33
S - 5
D - 4
M - 14 years
Bomb 1 Dec 06
Bomb 2 Aug 07
Separated - Aug 07
WAW Renting own place - Dec 07