Remember how just last Thurs. I fussed w/H about his borrowing my car for his boat engine p/u, and that he needed to get his own darn vehicle . . .Well, on Sat he had one! Traded his Honda in & bought a truck (The kids told me). I don't know if it's new/used or even waht color it is. But, damm, how's that for causing a reaction?
Is it coincidence that only a weekend away from the Turning Point (in my attitude/GALing [Thurs. & Fri.], dress, music/interests etc) he all of a sudden is "seeing someone"??? For however long this may or may not have been going on, it's interesting that he's only TODAY felt I needed to know. My guess is that he's (only since this wkend) felt released enough - or that I'm strong enough - for the truth (which is, weirdly, a positive b/c, in a way, it's like he's giving me the RESPECT of "the truth", that I deserve [my WORTH] to know; that he might actually care that I not hear it first from the kids . . .) I'm also not convinced that his "seeing someone" isn't either (1) A Big Fat Lie (tho his intention is to do it); or (2) a decision that was only reached yest/today & means something along the lines of 'i'm gonna dating, so it doesn't matter to me that you're going out' or (3) means that he's finally gotten to wherever he needed to be to call the New Grass woman. It's all weirdly convoluted (human emotions, ugh) but there's little germs of "real" in alot of it.
In any event, Whatever. It doesn't change anything. It's still a REACTION for the most part. He's still not 'GONE' from the M or me. He's still cares way too much. And he's trying to get back into control by knocking me down. I'm still standing for my M. I'm not giving up this easily. But he is sorely underestimating this girl if he thinks he will get back in my life w/little or no deep introspection & understanding of [all that I've come to know].
So, don't know if I'm making much sense here right now. Got a million things to do, and going thru my mind. But planning on enjoying my Adventure for the next few days. If I don't get to log on b/f I leave, thanks, my friends, for all you are & all you do for me. DBing has truly saved my sanity, and y'all have truly lifted my spirits. I'll be back some time late Sun. prolly. Nomo can hold down the fort, and I'll check in w/y'all then. Cheers!
Last edited by stillme; 07/04/0712:39 AM.
Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
Me: 45 - WAH: 36 S8; D6 M: 11 yrs 07/06 Initial Bomb 10/06; D Bomb 11/06 - DBing begun 1/5/07 - H moved out 03/16/07 To date: No papers filed; H not seen a L; trying to convince me to MUTUALLY file for D
I don't want to hold down the fort. I want to go too. Dammit! I need a friend with a bf with a private plane. Guess that goes on my list of goals. I'm gonna hit the town to drown my sorrows.
Nomopo
PS - have a BLAST!
M 39 W 39 M'd 10 yrs; T 14 yrs S7 D4 Bomb 5-8-05 W not working on M 1-22-07; EA 2-22 DB 4-10 S 6-11 No more C Link
Oh, and think about this one too: Three HOT girls in ONE CA-King bed w/little but mosquito netting to cover us.
Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
Me: 45 - WAH: 36 S8; D6 M: 11 yrs 07/06 Initial Bomb 10/06; D Bomb 11/06 - DBing begun 1/5/07 - H moved out 03/16/07 To date: No papers filed; H not seen a L; trying to convince me to MUTUALLY file for D
Hey! What the hell are you trying to do??? That's just mean spirited! There's a lot of us on these boards who haven't exactly had our fair quota of . . . Physical touch.
M 39 W 39 M'd 10 yrs; T 14 yrs S7 D4 Bomb 5-8-05 W not working on M 1-22-07; EA 2-22 DB 4-10 S 6-11 No more C Link
Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
Me: 45 - WAH: 36 S8; D6 M: 11 yrs 07/06 Initial Bomb 10/06; D Bomb 11/06 - DBing begun 1/5/07 - H moved out 03/16/07 To date: No papers filed; H not seen a L; trying to convince me to MUTUALLY file for D
Quote: Also had young-Italian guy (never did get his name) walking by, taking hold of my hand, and pulling me behind him onto the dance floor a couple of times. When he asked for my # & we had to get into the Why Not's (that's the omitted Long Version; but I think I did really well w/the convo there), it lead to the Well, how old ARE you? question & his (giveaway), "That's WHACK!" response. Seems I could be the boy's mother but (as he put it) (appreciative) "DAMM!" LOL.
Your cheerfulness is making me happy, too! I noticed, reading in your last thread, that you were working on family albums (?)--had a pile of photos and such lying on the table. These adventures of yours should definitely find their way into those albums: for a true photogragh of life in the Stillme family.
Hey! What the hell are you trying to do??? That's just mean spirited! There's a lot of us on these boards who haven't exactly had our fair quota of . . . Physical touch. 
