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I don’t know why I did this but this morning I took my wedding ring off for the first time in 16 years and left in on my night stand. Why? I don’t know.

Also I have a lunch date tomorrow with a female co worker.

Husband

Are you sure that's what you want to do? Are you trying to get some sort of reaction from your W? My opinion is that the lunch date is treading some pretty thin ice. I don't know that I would ever start 'dating' again if I truly still wanted my M to work out. This is going to send some pretty mixed signals to your W if she knows about it. That's just my opinion though.

Husband,
Is this coworker someone you have had lunch dates with in the past? Are your lunch dates a routine? Does she know about your situation? Are you planning on telling her about it?

Honestly, why are you having lunch with her?

I think taking the ring off is fine. What does it mean for you? What is the message you're trying to send? How will it help you in your efforts?

If taking the ring off helps in furthering detachment, than I say fine. I know you're distressed by your situation, and I think anything that will lower it's power over you is a good thing.

CL

The ring goes back on when I get home. The W may not even have seen it. It was just a itch that I had to sratch. As for the "date" IT"S JUST LUNCH" The 'Co worker is a freind of My W also.( All three of us work for the same company just in diferant buildings.) Ok I'll totaly confess. It is My W cousin. Her and I are good friends. I am not going to discuss R with her.


Husband

My H quit wearing his ring and it hurt me very badly. I figured I would never take mine off until a D was absolutely final. As long as I was married, it would stay on, no matter how bad it got.

Cad

It is going back on as soon as I get home......


Husband

Ok cades the ring is back on. I am going to be trying something different. I have been on a pain medication because of my leg. I am going to see how long I can go without taking it. I do think this medication alters my mood. Makes me more passive and emotional. Let’s see what happens now. I am going to ask my W out on wed. For Saturday night. I will ask her how late she thinks her mom could watch our son that way she dictates what time the night is over. We are going to go to this out of the way little pizza joint and then maybe across the street for a little dancing.

Husband

Sounds like a good plan. Keep us updated.

Ok everyone new problem I am dealing with.

I was in a car accident 20 years ago. My right leg had to be amputated. I have learned to live with the things I cannot change due to this. I have a prosthetic leg and I get around fine. In fact new people I meet don’t even know. I just have a little limp. Any who I have what they call “phantom pains” All of the nerves that were going to my leg are still there they just stop at my knee. My brain does not know the leg is not there anymore. It just keeps getting signals from the nerves. For the first 18 years I have dealt with the pain. I have learned to “Tune it out”. Well 2 years ago I asked the doctor if there was some type of surgery that I could have that would take the pain away. He said no and started prescribing pain killers to me.

Monograph title
HYDROCODONE/ACETAMINOPHEN - ORAL
Phonetic pronunciation
(hi-dro-CODE-own/ah-seet-ah-MIN-oh-fen)
Common brand name(s)
Lorcet, Lortab, Norco, Vicodin
Uses
This medication is a combination of a narcotic (hydrocodone) and a non-narcotic (acetaminophen) used to relieve moderate to severe pain. Hydrocodone works by binding to opioid receptors in the brain and spinal cord, and acetaminophen decreases the formation of prostaglandins, therefore relieving pain.

I have found that this has become a crutch and I have become addicted to it. I have not really used my mind in the last 2 years. I have been numbing my thinking with this stuff. Thanks to saffie she has pointed this out to me. I am on my second day without it. The first day was like I had a hang over all day. Today is better except my mind is looking for the buzz. Today is the day I realized I was addicted to it. I had no pain but I wanted it. (The drug not the pain). My first wife left me with a 3 month D and a 3 year old D. She was a cocaine addict I found out after she left. She was so far along that the drug meant more to her than our beautiful daughters. I raised them by myself until I met my current W. I don’t know How I can ever thank Saffie for saving me from becoming my ex wife. My son and wife mean more to me than any physical pain I could ever have. I can’t really describe it but I already feel different. I know I am still hooked but as long As I can keep it out of the house I can wait out the urge. Thanks everyone for listening or reading or whatever ya all do.

On the lighter side I am thinking about getting a tattoo…. I like pirates so I was thinking a skull and cross bones. Just a little one on my shoulder

Husband

Well, don't feel so bad. It's addictive stuff. BTDT. I wouldn't go cold turkey though, you can probably wean yourself off slowly -- that would probably be the better idea. I got on it after pregnancy #2 b/c it totally "zoomed" me up. Loved the stuff. But, can't be on it forever, unless you have issues like you do. BUT if you truly don't need it all the time, it's going to take time to get off of it. It'll be like the smoking thing -- very mind over matter. You probably think you need/want it more than you really do!