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I cannot even stay away from this place for 12 hours.
Wonder if I am an addict

Had a half hour talk with W this morning, bad DB'ing I know.

The good thing if there is one is she admitted she has not been there for me when all this crap came down. Also admitted that she did not put forth the effort in our M the last year or two.
I brought up some of the negatives that she has said lately, I was not a good DB'er, she did make me smile when she said do not read anything into the bad stuff she is saying, she is not sure what she wants but is feeling that she did not try and is feeling guilty about it and does not want to hurt myself or our S. She did say that the alcohol was really the only problem and "knows", she must have spies, that I have not been drinking at all. Most of the other talk was about work and our son and our 3 day trip out of town this upcoming weekend.

I don't think half an hour convo is bad -- and you hashed out stuff. and she gave you hope.

Stop looking at me like that, you are making me nervous.

Those 1/2 conversations are great, I got to have one of those last Thursday but nothing about the R...so go with it. Just don't overanalyze it like I do!!!
Keep up the good work!!

That she did, but once again I do not want to put much into it.
Her biggest worry at the moment, and she brought this up, she is worried how this is affecting our son and does not want to see him hurt by all that is going on. She seemed to have actual remorse about not being there for my needs when this all started. She made the comment that in some ways it has been easy for her because her only thought has been about us or not us, she knows that I am going thru a multitude of things at once and she threw this on top.

I am not going to get all giddy about any of this, but it is nice to know that she is actually thinking and not just "moving on".

Good Luck to you to man, I know how you feel but don't be too much of a stranger!

As you can see, I cannot stay away.

It must be your fault, I want to see what happens for you tommorrow.

LOL, then check back Thursday.

I will, I will.

Guess the next part of my journey will start friday and go thru monday. I might be able to write a book when I get back. Hopefully one going in the right direction. 3+ days, non-stop with W, except for a golf outing with BIL, could be interesting to say the least.

I played golf yesterday, KILLED my drives, my irons were a bit off to the right and I could NOT putt. Shot a 48, pretty crappy for a fairly easy course, but it was the first time I've ever played it. Really fun though!

Just go with the flow on your trip, act "as if" and hav a good time. Don't even think about the R.

HAVE FUN!