It is so nice to have the support and know you guys are there. I'm sorry I haven't posted but I have been trying to get all our animals shipped to different spots and at work I was the only one in the accounting department at school. So it has been a really full week. I hate having to walk on egg shells but I know I probably ask more because of it.
It has been really strange to day. He is in Minnesota and staying at different motels all the time because of his job. He usually calls at least 6 times a day especially since we are shipping the cattle. He didn't answer any calls and only called me once very unusual for him during this time in our business. My mind gets to wondering if she flew back to see him. He use to ignore my calls if she was around. I know I shouldn't assume. But knowing this OW she is the best at manipulating. I think sometimes it would be for the best to say OK. If you want the split here it is. It is so strange that one minute he's talking our future and the next he is in another world.
Well guys Thank you so much for the support hugs (((Tam)))) and you to (((YOYO)))and (((Matilda))) and everyone. You guys are the greatest.....
Is your thread locked up. I tried to post and there is nothing. I didn't know if it was just me or what...LEt me know. Hang in there You are strong.
I have been really tired and sore. I have used muscle I have forgot I had. It is a busy time of year hopefully it will slow down. Thanks for the support. It is nice that the boys come home and help. My youngest is only 6 miles away for the summer so he knida pops in when he can. I really enjoy that.
What a job....moving cattle!! WOW!! YOU are amazing, Penny!!!! (I had no idea what type of business you did from home).
Hope by now you have heard from your H. No matter what, try not to project reasons for his not calling. It will only drive you crazy! You have no control over this anyway so try to let go!
My thread did lock. I will let you know when I start a new one. Meanwhile I'll keep checking on you here!
Penny, Hey Hon, sounds like you've been very busy. I've been really busy this weekend and haven't had time to post, but just wanted to check in with you and let you know I've been thinking of you. I'll post more later, got to go help daughter with her new apt.
Hugs to you, Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
I just got in the house and its almost 11 but I had to write a little to you. My H is acting very strange these last 3 days. He hasn't hardly called. Today I called this morning to tell him how the shipping had gone. He is very distant. I had to talk to him this afternoon and he was real distant. I ask is something was wrong and that he was distant. I almost wonder if someone was there. He didn't answer a couple of times when I had to get a hold of him. No text messages or anything. I finally got a hold of him tonight and then he was nicer and listened to all the messages. I have no clue why he is being so strange. He has been calling and being very positive and supportive and listening to postive thinking tapes as he drives on his job. His mom couldn't figure it out. She told me just to keep going and he will call when he wants to give me some orders. She did make me feel good. I live about 1/4 of a mile away from them and do alot for them. She told me I was to stay here as long as I wanted for ever if I wanted, that my FIL and her would really miss me that I bring joy to there lives. At least I do someone.
It has been a stressful day today. and a long few days.
It is really funny. It seems that sometimes when I have a lot of work to do, I have a big crew of mostly men that have worked for us and helped me a lot for years. They all come and help me and sometimes I think it bums him out because they used to come help him but they kinda quit because he would get so mad at the kids and I that they didn't like it so they wouldn't help him as much. But they will come help me. At times I think he wishes I would find someone so he could use that as an excuse to move on. He told me once if he divorced me he would have to move because everyone would be so mad at him especially if it was over the OW. He always teases me sarcastically (spelling) that some guy is going to want to run off with me because I am doing the business by myself. What do you think? Why would he say things like that?
I do have to tell you. It made me feel good the other day I had a 31 year old guy that I have known for ever make a pass at me. It made a 48 year old feel good. I was kinda shocked my self. That would show him!!!He was big and strong and cute...That would show him...Just kidding I wouldn't do that....It might have been tempting but I stayed strong....It just surprised me....I didn't tell any one but giggled to my self.
You never know what life is going to throw at you. Well guys I hope things are going well today for you. Thanks for listening to me.
Matilda let me know when you get your new thread. Hope things are going OK...HUGS YoYO, Did you get your daughter moved? Hope you are doing OK too MOre HUGS...It just feels good to know someone cares... I just keep thinking this to shall pass...but its sure moving slow and not passing like we all want.....Hang in there guys..Have a good day tomorrow. Its time to go to sleep....
I just got in the house and its almost 11 but I had to write a little to you. My H is acting very strange these last 3 days. He hasn't hardly called. Today I called this morning to tell him how the shipping had gone. He is very distant. I had to talk to him this afternoon and he was real distant. I ask is something was wrong and that he was distant he said he was just driving. I almost wonder if someone was there. He didn't answer a couple of times when I had to get a hold of him. No text messages or anything. I finally got a hold of him tonight and then he was nicer and listened to all the messages I had for him and the decisions that I had made for this week. I have no clue why he is being so strange. He has been calling and being very positive and supportive and listening to postive thinking tapes as he drives on his job. Then to just draw back this weekend. His mom couldn't figure it out. She told me just to keep going and he will call when he wants to give me some orders. She did make me feel good. I live about 1/4 of a mile away from them and do alot for them. She told me I was to stay here as long as I wanted for ever if I wanted, that my FIL and her would really miss me that I bring joy to there lives. At least I do someone.
It has been a stressful day today. and a long few days.
It is really funny. It seems that sometimes when I have a lot of work to do, I have a big crew of mostly men that have worked for us and helped me a lot for years. They all come and help me and sometimes I think it bums him out because they used to come help him but they kinda quit because he would get so mad at the kids and I that they didn't like it so they wouldn't help him as much. But they will come help me. At times I think he wishes I would find someone so he could use that as an excuse to move on. He told me once if he divorced me he would have to move because everyone would be so mad at him especially if it was over the OW. He always teases me sarcastically (spelling) that some guy is going to want to run off with me because I am doing the business by myself. What do you think? Why would he say things like that?
I do have to tell you. It made me feel good the other day I had a 31 year old guy that I have known for ever make a pass at me. It made a 48 year old feel good. I was kinda shocked my self. That would show him!!!He was big and strong and cute...That would show him...Just kidding I wouldn't do that....It might have been tempting but I stayed strong....It just surprised me....I didn't tell any one but giggled to my self.
You never know what life is going to throw at you. Well guys I hope things are going well today for you. Thanks for listening to me.
Matilda let me know when you get your new thread. Hope things are going OK...HUGS YoYO, Did you get your daughter moved? Hope you are doing OK too MOre HUGS...It just feels good to know someone cares... I just keep thinking this to shall pass...but its sure moving slow and not passing like we all want.....Hang in there guys..Have a good day tomorrow. Its time to go to sleep....
Penny, They certainly do go through odd mood swings, don't they? One minute you have your hopes all high and the next minute, you feel so down. I guess that is why everyone on here always says don't read too much into it and get your hopes up. Easier said than done, huh? A 31 year old, hmmm... you go girl! It is defiinitely good for the old ego, but at least we all have the strength to say no, wish our husbands did. Just hang in there and don't call him unless it is absolutely necessary, let him call you. Hugs to you!
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
I've just had a real hard day to day. It seems like everything breaks down at once and he wouldn't answer any calls til tonight and I finally just said that this is business call. He finally did but acts really strange. I almost think she flew back there with him. I can't believe I let my self get to feeling this way about talking to him. I need some strong will power. Why do we feel so bad or let them have such a hold on us. I have been reading "Emotional Black mail" It is very good about explaining alot of our situations and how we handle them. I just need to follow some of my own advice.
I finally said a little to my mom about him not calling. I haven't said anything to them. I knew she would be livid. She just said don't talk to him. I guess if I was good at DB I wouldn't act like it bothered me. I think that is where I mess up. Then I think he thinks if I am pleasant about everything then its OK? Does anyone else get that feeling?
Thank you for your support. I really appreciate it. I wish I could post at work but I don't know if that would be good. I get on read about everybody's threads.
Well I need to get to bed have to get up and do some stuff before I go to work. My Pick up broke down tonight and the garage kept it. I was lucky my Youngest son is close for the summer. He came and got me. The lawnmower and the washer all quit but I have them running again today. What a life!!!!!!
