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I took up walking / running, but you know I still think about her when I do that. I ask all the same questions over and over in my mind. Why? How could she? Where did it/I go wrong? I am even seeing someone else and I really like her, but I have never failed like this before. I did not do anything wrong. She went outside of the "R". Not me! I still do not understand why I feel the way I do. All I know is that everyday it gets easier.

Some friends and I used to get together and play texas hold em. I love it. I even won a couple times.

I think it wouldn't be so bad for me but most of the time I am in the office by myself. I came in at 8:00 this morning and have been sitting here alone since. If only there was someone else to talk to.

Yes it does. Only once in awhile I backslide.

that's why you have us

Here's how my day started - got ready for work, forgot my foundation, dropped D off @ day care only to find out that she needed a swimsuit and towel (thanks H for telling me ) so I ran back home for that. Then they were asking about summer school so I ran home to check the schedule. Fast forward - I pull into work, go to grab my stuff and my computer is .... at home on the desk

So another trip home - what takes me 10-15 minutes took an hour.

But I think the Lex is working LOL

I know the feeling and I do not like it. You feel it coming on too. That feeling in your stomach and the sudden rush of emotions and the swelling in your eyes. That is enough about that. Just a simple e-mail wishing her "Happy Birthday" and that is it. Nothing else in it.

I have had days like that before too. Not so much lately though.

My day usually starts out fighting to get the kids out of bed (they are not morning people). Get myself ready and usually go sit in the car and wait for them. (only about 1 - 2 minutes)

Drive them to school, drop off youngest daughter and then oldest. (Their schools are right next to each other but the way they have it set up, I have to drop one off behind the school and the other at the side of hers) Come to work, check messages, read the paper, check company email, and then I get on and talk to all you people. If I have work, I do that in between. I am usually here from 7:45 - 11:00 +/- some time alone. Boss comes in for about an hour then goes to lunch and I am alone again. When he gets back, I am leaving to go get the kids.

I pick them up from school, drop oldest off at her job, go sit at H's apt. and wait for him to get there and drop off youngest. Back to work I go. I either finish up a few things or get back on here. Friday is my busiest day. I can play all week and still get everything done on Friday. I tend to save it so at least that day goes by quick.

That is my boring day at work.

Signing off for a bit today. Didn't want anyone to think I abandoned them. I have a major headache and am going to turn the computer off for a bit. I think that is my problem. Of course I will be back.

get better girl

Man you have a lot of posts. You must have really been spending a alot of time on here.

me? I talk a lot

I was even more crazy when I first got here...I've settled down - somewhat.