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Jazz, you may or may not have noticed, I think I am the only one here that does not think a god exists, probably my own fault but I have thought that way for a long time. My parents were never church type people and with all the crap that happened as a teenager, I just figured one did not exist.
I keep having people here and in real life tell me to keep having hope and believe, or this is gods' test for you. I will take alot of the blame for what has happened to myself for most of my life. But if god exists and this is a test, does he really expect anyone to pass it. I think it is graded on a curve and I am on the back side of it.

I do not think I have 4 years in me to research.
Think it is better for my own well being to just say
"**** you all and the horse you road in on"

Not talking about all you in here, just those in my life

I wish I had someone to call, dammit they are all working now.
Use to be easy in the old days, would just call my friend in the fridge.

Sorry you don't need to be listening to this Jazz, just going in a bad direction in my head right now

Why didnt you tell me that before I let go of my sanity

Stop talking like that.

I'll be back in a minute...

Couldn't get it to open, see not may day to get any humor

Have to run. Will be back later, and hopefully in better spirits because I cannot take much more crap that is going on.

789, dude, come on!

Look, sh1t happens. It can happen A LOT, but the cops being cops isn't going to change your relationship with your wife. It doesn't change the little signs you've seen the last few days.

I'll tell you what that crap is, it's the adversary trying to keep you from your family. He's trying to keep you down. Go immediately to your local book store and buy, "The screwtape letters." It's a fiction, but it's definitely how the adversary works on you! It'll open your eyes, and CS Lewis is a great author. If you like that one, get "The Great Divorce" too (not what you think.)

Regardless, don't sweat the cop stuff, that'll take care of itself. Take care of you and your family. You'll get through this, you'll be fine, focus on the good.

I know, it is not just the issue with the police, it is everything along with that. I am so tired of it all, I feel like I am in a fight with the world and I have my hands tied behind my back. Everytime something goes semi right, or seems good, I don't have a little backslide, I get hit up the head with a baseball bat.
I know I am just ranting here but #%$@#@ where is all the good in this battle. I told Jazz earlier, if this is a test from god, does he really expect any one to make it ??????