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Hey, forget about H right now. You need to take care of yourself. 4 pounds in one day is really not good for your system. Eat anything, something. You have to be good to yourself and your body.

KS, accept darling, accept.

You know what needs to be done here for yourself, it's simply making the decision to act and get where you need to be. The tired part is a killer, it enhances the fear, despair, loneliness, anger, everything.

Eat some soup, get some sleep, do for you.


Ian

Yes.

What Ian said.

I think I could accept it if I just had an answer.

I have accepted it, I have taken the Lexapro, but it's my gag reflex.....it's messing me up.

I should rephrase the above. I have accepted it - but it's still hard. I have accepted that he's done, although it doesn't appear he's moved forward with the D.

I also think he's in MLC.

I don't think your getting me UA, what I mean is accept that this is where your life is at today and you must persevere. You must eat, you must sleep, you must take care of yourself no atter what.

If he's MLC, then why are you stressing out so bad, you know that stuff takes time and patience. What about you my dear?

I am wondering why he has so much power over you even when he isn't earning it. Before I understood because y'all were around each other constantly and interacting, but now, detach baby.....


Ian

he doesn't Ian. I have let go and let God have this.

I would eat but I really can't. Every time I yawn, I have the urge to throw up. My stomach is in knots and I'm waiting on the Lex to work. AUGH! I just want a sign - something from God.

I ate more today than yesterday

I think I'm worn out still from the Relay too.

P.S. I think the going dark thing is harder on me than him. He seems to like it this way. He dropped D off tonight and couldn't even leave the truck - made her walk to the door with all of her stuff. That's ok too I guess...it just hurts.

HA HA -- GET THIS!!!!!!

So D was telling me about her little campout that they had this weekend......

and about who all was there. H told her not to tell me that the girl I think he had an EA with was there....because if she told me, she wouldn't get to see him anymore.



I am so over this. This is not a M and hasn't been for a long time.

So many little things he said over the summer last year...

I feel like I'm 21 again
partying all the time
I'm not meant to be married

as well as the continued partying

Oh and my favorite line:

If you don't give me this divorce, I WILL cheat on you.